Driving on Bitterness

Endurer, with a Quitter’s Attitude! (Pt. 1)

(When we endure hardships, but don’t want to be healed)

I remember the day I was called out of Marietta, GA. It was time to pack it up and keep it moving yet know that I was in total dis-agreeance with what God was doing; for as the word of God says, I did not see the whole outcome and I was only sitting with what I had in part. I was disturbed and vexed by the un-comfortability of being taken out my dream, my hope, and my vision that I had for my future with God in GA.

Yet, God had another plan!

As I sat in a car as the passenger on I-95N, everything in me wanted the driver to stop driving and let me out at the side on the side of the highway. Everything in me wanted to shake my fist to heaven and tell God a thing or two, but that whole scenario was all in my head, I just sat, driving on bitterness.

I remember we arrived at the cusp of NYC and were approaching the bridge that crosses you over from New Jersey to NYC and considering being low on cash, we tried to figure out a way to cross over without having to pay the toll. We used the cellphone GPS to set the filters that would suggest toll avoidance, but all we found was we just kept driving in circles trying to avoid the toll with the GPS. At last, we were well over an hour of trying to avoid the unavoidable, and as we drove to the toll teller, we surrendered to the truth that we couldn’t afford to cross over. What a sigh of relief when the Teller informed us that we could be billed, and it was okay to cross over without the fee. And so, we crossed over and ended up arriving three hours later than we were supposed to. We were able to unpack all my things and get them situated at my new temporary home. Yet, we were met with more time wasted as we drove in circles again trying to find parking for the car, this took another two hours.

Why did I share all of this? There is someone, most of the time there are, who are avoiding crossing over because we think we have to foot the bill (stop being angry, be soft, pliable, willing and open).

Please understand, God “was willing” to throw me out of where I was living, He shut the door on favor in that state of GA, just so He could get my attention that I needed to cross over from unforgiveness to forgiveness. The Lord allowed me to seethe, spit, cry and then confess. I hated the idea of being moved to do something that I thought I had already done (forgive); I thought I did because of the distance. What the Lord showed me was that the distance between GA and NY was the distraction, but He would show me once I sat in that car and was thrust out of GA that I was not healed but clearly driving on bitterness; eventually, I forgave and was so full of love to share because of the Lord!

Someone is about to be evicted from unforgiveness, bitterness, turmoil and strife with family. This breakthrough is going to restore years the enemy stole from you, your mom, dad, sons, daughters, grandchildren, sisters, and brothers.  

In our walk let us let go of self-righteousness, arrogance, pride and piety. God can’t work in us with any of this taking a greater hold of our hearts.

It is crazy how the Lord has to wedge our hearts away from living out pricking hurt from our past every single day because we don’t want to forgive what someone said, didn’t do or even couldn’t give. We’d think we would be willing to give it up considering how much we play the violin about it; but it’s a heartache only our Savior can repair!

Beloved please know that we hinder our lives in Christ, and we hinder smiles, and joy, we hinder learning and growing, we hinder time that we should be prospering, instead of being stagnated because we keep dreaming and driving on bitterness.

Forgive, that we may be forgiven in Jesus Name. Amen

Until Next Time Beloved, Read the Word to Know Him